Learning to dance in the rain

October 8, 2010

K vs K

Filed under: Uncategorized — justjoanie @ 7:21 am

Well, in reading back through my blog, I realized I named 2 people “K”.  They are definitely 2 different women. The first one ended up being somewhat of a stalker, kinda scary. The new “K” is amazing. No more talking about stalker K, from now on, it’s all about amazing K. (wow, that makes her sound like a superhero)

Things have been going so well since our weekend together. The Kids are getting to know her, and have been trying to accept her. They were so hurt by M disappearing out of their lives, that they are reluctant to accept anyone new.  K has been spending nights at my house, and I have to say, I don’t ever want to sleep alone again. It’s so great to have warm arms wrapped around you making you feel safe and comforted.

I was trying to hold out on telling K that I loved her. I wanted to make sure that this wasn’t just an infatuation or worse yet, a rebound. But then when I stopped to think about it, I don’t want to lose out on the wonderful new in love feeling and knowing that person is feeling the same way. So I told her how I felt. I love learning new things about  her every day, and watching her learn new things about me.

As good as this feels, though, I’m still scared. I suppose it’s to be expected. So afraid of being hurt. I can’t hurt like that again.

I’m suppose to have dinner tonight with her and her friends tonight. Don’t know what to expect with that. I suppose they are just as protective over K as my friends and family are over me. One of my “important” people, my cousin L, approved of her when we were there last weekend. She said she really liked her. She only had one derogatory thing to say, and it’s something very superficial, and it’s going to be fixed soon anyway, but putting that aside, L really liked her.

Have I mentioned that she has absolutely amazingly beautiful blue eyes???