Learning to dance in the rain

October 13, 2010

Here we go (again)

Filed under: Uncategorized — justjoanie @ 7:42 am

My weekend with K was wonderful. A great 3 day weekend with nothing to do but enjoy the time.

Then last night, she dropped a little bombshell on me, and it’s not really anything I think I’m going to just get over. She kept some information from me, and it was really important information. She didn’t give me the chance to make an informed decision about she and I. This will be a constant rift between us. I don’t think I’m going to continue this relationship.

I think it’s a little telling, though, that I’m not really all that sad about it. I’m a little upset that I’m going to have to hurt her, but not upset for myself. I have a great group of PC friends that are always there for me anytime I need to talk or vent. And I have a new group of IRL friends that I’m looking forward to hanging out with on a regular basis.

The only thing that is a little upsetting is that K was the only person that lives anywhere near me that I found on the online dating site. Oh, well, I’m sure that someone will show up someday. Like a friend of mine told me, the love of your life shows up when you’re not looking.

I’m getting a little embarrassed about writing constantly about my “love life”. Especially when it always seems to go bad. But through all of this, I’ve discovered that I’m not the kind of person that does well alone. I like and want to be with someone. I like to know that there is someone that just can’t wait to see me at the end of the day. I like knowing that someone is thinking about me as much as I’m thinking about her.

Someday this person will come along and sweep me off my feet. I’m looking forward to that day.

Stay tuned for the next episode of….. “The Soap Opera That Is My Life”