Learning to dance in the rain

February 28, 2011

Just call me Nani

Filed under: babies,depression,grandmother,pregnancy — justjoanie @ 1:54 pm

Yep, my daughter is pregnant. I think I’m holding up alot better than I thought I would. I can feel the depression creeping up, but it’s not taken me over completely. I can’t go into the pit, because I have my daughter to think about. I have to stay strongĀ for her. She had a little “freak-out” when the test was positive. But we sat down together and talked and she seemed to be ok. I’m sure that’s not the only freak-out she’s going to have in the next 9 months.

I’m trying to be proactive and stay on top of everything (including my depression). I’ve talked to my insurance company to find out that yes, she will be covered, and that we have an out of pocket max of $1500. So we won’t have to pay any more than that. Plus there is a great young first time mom’s program they are going to put her into. I think I found a doctor, the only female in our insurance network that practices out of the hospital we want to use. I’m going to try to make an appointment with her.

I also called our EAP program for work, so that I can get into see a coucelor. We have 3 free sessions, then it’s a $15 co-pay after that. I’m going to call about an appointment. I’ve got to stay on top of this. Can’t let myself fall into that pit. I can’t have a full blown episode. I have to reverse this now.

I’ll keep posting about the progression of our lives.